A week into December and now it is the snow which persistently falls. I walk to the vacant field at noon with my father's Polaroid camera. I want pictures of the ground, traces, the footprints in the field but instead I am drawn toward the playground. Everything is black and white except the slides and monkey bars which are blue and red. I take the polaroids but I must put the pictures next to my skin, against my chest, so that they will be warm enough to develop. I walk back across the empty field with pictures forming under the warmth of my shirt.
That night I dream of a Polaroid camera for photographing paintings. The pictures do not develop like ordinary pictures--as if someone were slowly turning on the lights in a darkened room--but rather they develop as the artist produced the painting, brush stroke by brush stroke. I point the camera at you and squeeze the release on the shutter. The picture forms slowly, through all the years of your life, your face growing into the frame; while the background flows by like a road through all the places you have ever been.